I spent today with a girlfriend. That in itself is unusual. Now add in that our mission was to create a collage about our optimal relationship with a man. We had tons of magazines and poster board and glue. We fixed lunch and sat outside before we began. Drew some Tarot cards. And had lots of fun sharing our thoughts and feelings about the photos we were coming up with, past relationships, and our favorite fantasy men. Then we went to dinner and she left to pick up her boyfriend at the airport. It was a total fun day!!

What occured to me in all this process is that I sent the message to the Universe that this is how I want to live my life. Having time for fun and friends and creativity, playing with a bit of magic, and just being girly and light. It was a wonderful confirmation of the joy in living 'as if' this was a typical occurence in my life, how I want it to be (and not how I usually allow it to be.) It also let me see how more and more I am believing in receiving for no reason vs. trying to make things happen, or measuring whether or not I've worked hard enough to be deserving of the life that I want to experience.