How much control do you think we have of our lives? The
older I get the more I realize that things seem to work out more when I let go that
control. Do you think it might be a test from G-d? If that is the
case I have failed many times over! What part of us thinks we can control
situations and people? I think our ego side has a lot to do with it or the insecure
child buried in all of us. It’s really frightening to say “ I don’t know what’s
going to happen but I will put it out there and let G-d take over.” You would think that it would be simple but it has been the
hardest obstacle for me to cross. Maybe insecurity has a lot to do with it or
my faith in my maker. What am I afraid of? Many times in my life I have witnessed
great success in letting go and still I have issues when the next situation pops
up. Being a person who suffers greatly from anxiety I am most
certain that all my attacks are triggered by my stubbornness to control the
outcome. A wise friend has
recently turned me on in helping me develop more faith in G-d then people. I first thought he
will give me a prayer or a long lecture but what he said next blew me away.... It’s simple he said you need to start talking out loud to
G-d. Strange I thought since I do always have a running conversation with G-d
but I usually never utter it out loud. Wrong he said.. you need to make G-d like a friend standing in
front of you. So I took his advice and tried it. Wow! I couldn’t believe how much frustration and pain I had
bottled inside that needed to be said out loud. I guess that inner running conversation
was also tied to my control issue.

So G-d here it is I’m
going to shout this out loud that I AM
LETTING GO AND LETTING YOU….