The doctor said I will be dead before I turn 30. I once was skipping on a sidewalk that had no ending, but things have become much different now; time has really slowed down like some kind of cruel joke. I can see the top of the hourglass and appreciate each grain of sand that falls. Everything is so clear... so near, but I keep going in attempts to wear my protective prescription contacts that prevent my far-sighted vision. I had a vision the other night that there may be a heaven and I was thinking maybe God will work a miracle on me; The chances are slim. Maybe scientist will discover a cure; "The chances are slim," the doctor says. I am now 30, and the last 10 years have felt like a second. Any day now, 3 days to go, 2 days to go, 1, still has'nt happened. 3 days to go, 2 days to go, 1, still has'nt happened. Every single day I am walking on this tight rope in a dark room, and the last remaining light bulb is flickering on and off.
So next time you climb into bed with your love, or go to work, or eat a meal, or anything that means anything, appreciate the freedom you have.

It give me appreciation.