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Posted by jill23 on November 29, 2008 6:51 PM PST
Topic: Depression
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I worry too much. I can't help it.  Things are spiraling out of control and I can't keep up. I want to love and be loved.  I'm confused.  I feel alone. I ache so much I want to cry.  I hate it.

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you take the words right out of my mouth

Rosa's picture

This isn't so much a blog as a complaint. You gave no reasons and you didn't even state your feeling poetically. Sounds like a child ranting.

missfunkadilly's picture

I was bored and testing it out.... i'm new.

jill23's picture

Everyone has these feelings - why don't you elaborate?

flyingleadchange's picture

will do.

jill23's picture

First, think more about what you want to say. People won't listen unless you're being sincere, complaints turn people off and don't help anyone. Its understandable that you would want help with what sounds like depression, but be ELOQUENT. Breathe. I'm here to help. Specifics are important. In this you sound like a child. I'm sorry, it's harsh, but true. I know you can't help it, but worrying fixes nothing. When you find yourself being paranoid (I have) think about actions you can take and not possible negative outcomes. might I recommend mary.com its a social site except the people there are genuine and looking for someone to talk to. I hope I helped even a little bit and feel free to talk to me anytime.

katya's picture

Jeez.... i didn't know this was so serious! i didn't even know people read them! I have bipolar disorder. I'm clinically diagnosed. It was a rant. I am also a writer. surprise surprise. i don't think blogging has to be so intense. read into it what you will.

jill23's picture

People get pretty serious on the blogs, but don't let it get you down, let it inspire you! Bipolar is a hard road (I'm also bipolar) but writing is a great skill to help you deal. And hey if you're worried about comments on it not being long enough, just title it "personal rant" :)

KnitsofLove's picture

Thank you =)

jill23's picture

I can't really say anything to help with your depression but I would encourage you to continue developing your blogging skills. As I am sure you know writing can be very cathartic.

renegadeoftech's picture

Continue writing and letting out your emotions. It only helps. I hope you can begin to feel some peace in your life and a little less unhappiness.

BethC's picture

Keep writing. Use a blog as an outlet for your emotions, whether they are good or bad. I know that bipolar can be very difficult, I wish you all of the best.

foxyloxy's picture

I recommend this more for the ongoing dialog than the original post. This shows that people really DO read these and they really do care! It's a small world after all.

ysomogyi's picture

I agree with what a lot of people here are saying. Blogs are pretty great outlets for expressing yourself and as I've learned over the course of keeping them since I was 14, they can really help you clear your mind and calm down.

TimmyW's picture

Of course, I can't say that I know exactly what you're going through, but I've felt that way before. Sometimes, it is helpful to cry it out and really talk to someone. I'm glad you posted, since this might help a little bit, but if I were you, I would talk to someone who is close to me. Having him/her just listen may help you feel love and love.

euroni's picture

I have been in your shoes at one time, always thinking my friends that had someone were the luckiest people on earth and they had no idea. Now I have the same that they did a someone to care about. What I didn't relize is how much I put into always wanting and feeling alone that I never really lived before I meet this person now..... Don't get me wrong I wouldn't change it for the world, but I would have made more of an effort to live my life and just let life handle the romance part.

madewell's picture

I have never experienced what you are but I think putting it into words is a great way to reach out and examine what you are feeling. One thing you can do is write a list of all the positive happy things in your life. Another thing to try is to write down your problems and brain storm solutions to them.

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